You know you are at the end of it

You know you are at the end of it
When your eyes are like dry wells
Tears no longer come out
Dehydrated suffering
You gaze so indifferently
At the so indifferent world
Detached, disinterested
Staring pointlessly
As if your eyes were already empty
Eye sockets
Relax
They will song become filled
With sand and dirt
Together with your mouth
Which you won’t have to keep shut
Any longer

Where Are You Going?

I feel your presence: it is crawling
I am desperate to get away
So, like a creepy-crawly creature
I sneak out into the bathroom
It’s a refuge, a shelter:
Once there I look into the mirror
It has been smashed into tiny constellations
Myriads of disjointed voids
Frozen in a macabre dance
When did she have the time to break the thing?
I think
I ask myself
There are no reflections
Just pitch dark hollowness behind the broken glass.
I pray for disappearance, not for salvation
I can’t escape with you being around
You should be long dead, so tell me
Why are you still here?
I speak to no one in particular as I stare into the empty space
And feel your bony tiny hand descend upon my shoulder
And feel your putrescent breath
It envelopes me, surrounds me, sucks me in
I scream and turn around
No one’s here
I make the leap
The door is locked!
That’s when I hear your voice:
“Hon, where are you going?”